DEAR RISHI RAHUL, my situation keeps getting worse

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It has been a few months now and these are my findings

Venus mantra increased fear and hypersensitivity dramatically. It really made me freak out. :-(
I still tried it for a while but it just wasn't barable.

So i tried laxmi mantra for 40 days because i read she also represents venus and her bija mantra "shrim" also strengthens Jupiter.
But this made me feel rather dull and depressed in the end. Instead of increasing positivity and wealth my financial worries increased! I began having problems with my teeth (begin of january) and this costs a lot of money.
At home everything seems to get broken at the same time!
I have lost 7kg in weight in one month just because i'm so stressed and anxious! Each day i wake up very nerveous. And feelings of despair and hypersensitivity just seem to increase.

The only positive thing that happened was that i could do the lay-out of a small brochure. So i made a little amount of money. But mentally, emotionally i suffer still a lot.

Every remedy i undertake seems to have an adverse effect?! Like my nerveous system can't handle it.


Dear rishi rahul, what would you suggest?