I disagree with the above statement too. I've been reading my own tarot spreads for years and I see nothing wrong with it. I wouldn't learn so much about the subject otherwise, as people tend to bring their preconceptions along with them when they're being read to, and that is entirely off-putting for me as an interpreter of Tarot.
If you -- the person living the life that's being symbolized by these cards -- if you yourself don't know what they mean to you, then why would someone else know any better?
Now -- that's not to say that it's bad to have other people read for you. Having someone else read for you can catch things that were beyond your perspective. It helps round out whatever may have escaped you. After all, that's why you're here asking =) It's about getting a second opinion.
Okay, that being said, I'll try to interpret this with what I have here. I'm not familiar with this deck, so I found this website
http://www.janetboyer.com/Legacy_of_the ... Tarot.html -- which has a selection of cards, but not enough for me to interpret imagery exactly. However, since it seems loosely based on Rider Waite, I’ll use what I know from that deck to apply to your reading in general.
Before I get started - I don't interpret reversed cards as necessarily negative. I find them just to be extra challenging in regards to obstacles being discussed. I don't think the positive aspects of the card are necessarily omitted in this interpretation -- rather, they're just harder to reach due to the obstacles placed in the path.
The first card, the 10 of discs reversed, in relation to the past, may be discussing how you previously felt about the situation depicted in the card (being with the wife in front of the hearth with the dogs by your side and wealth in abundance – the white picket fence scenario depicted in Rider Waite). Perhaps it’s reversed because your perspective on this possibility is skewed. Maybe instead of seeing a future romantic/living situation that is comforting, here you see one that symbolizes your discomfort.
Since this is a material card, I’d say that this discomfort arises from the material plane. There may be some physically-apparent reason, tied to your relation to the material world, why you feel the way you do towards relationships in the long run.
Just because this card is in the placement that symbolizes your past doesn’t mean you aren’t still feeling this discomfort when it comes to the scenario of the 10 discs. In fact, since you yourself said that your reasons for not pursuing this girl in the first place was because you were trying to concentrate your efforts elsewhere, perhaps that is the material aspect I’m getting at – the reason you didn’t pursue her in the first place. For whatever reason, the choice you made in the past is being presented to you in the present. I can tell you know this by your own interpretation of this spread.
The second card, Page of Swords in reverse, in relation to the present… some people believe Court cards (Kings, Queens, Pages) symbolize actual people. If this signifies you, then it’s talking about a lack of mental clarity, and an inability to predict the unpredictable. Sword cards relate to mentalities – and the sword itself is a symbol of defense. Perhaps this is talking about you guarding against your own mental clarity – especially in regards to opening up to that certain someone – and perhaps your guarding has reached the point that it has become difficult for you to let your mental guard down. The challenging aspect of this card is that as the page is defending himself against being mentally distracted, he is creating a life that is stagnant.
You mention that you worry about being pushed by others – that could be what this card is addressing. Maybe instead of guarding fiercely against mental distractions, you should anticipate them as natural occurrences that should be dealt with accordingly as they arise. If you continue the defensive stance, it will be extremely tiresome for anyone to penetrate that shield you’ve put up.
Third card, six of cups, in relation to the immediate future. This card talks about nostalgia. Since it’s in the reversed position – and based off what you’ve discussed – I’d say that maybe you should give thought to the actual reasons why you’re considering pursuing this girl for the second time. How does she feel about it? Just because she’s single doesn’t mean she won’t remember you didn’t pursue her in the first place. Does this desire to pursue her again spring from something nostalgic that you feel you might have missed out on? Does it spring out from the pressure of your peers?
Have you seen her lately and really felt a connection worth pursuing?
Are you yourself putting pressure on pursuing this girl because you’re seeking the idealistic aspect of the six cups (life long happiness with your mate)? Or are you pursuing that scenario for the wrong reasons?
I can’t answer these questions for you, but perhaps that’s what this card is getting at – answering those questions to yourself, for yourself, so you can make sense of what’s being presented here.
This card in its reversal correlates to disappointments – maybe what is disappointing for you is that the ideal scenario of the six cups is not as immediate and attainable as you’d like it to be – or maybe you’re disappointed that you let an opportunity for life long companionship slip by. Regardless, don't be overconsumed with what's in the past -- and don't let past choices deter you from pursuing opportunities you feel you missed out on previously. In other words: Don't feel sorry for yourself =)
Fourth card, nine of discs in reverse, referring to you in relation to the situation. This card in its regular interpretation discusses the fruits that are born out of the pursuit of goals in a solitary manner. Given its general meaning, I’d say that you’re at a point in your life where you have reaped what you’ve sown – in terms of being focused on your personal endeavors. This goes back to when I said the original choice you made towards this girl – choosing your goals over a relationship -- is still clearly on your mind. That was just one of the sacrifices you’ve made in order to be able to get to the point you’re at now. Regardless of what you may have lost – the point is that you’ve gained, even if it’s painful looking back.
The challenging aspect of this card is not to become to become complacent and lazy just because you’re seeing the fruit of your efforts blossom more fully. You've come a long way -- but stay humble and keep up the hard work. Chicks dig that =) Also, if you really are considering the possibility of a future relationship, give thought to how you'll be able to manage a solitary pursuit of material goals while maintaining a loving and healthy relationship.
Communicate your feelings on this openly and honestly to all who are concerned – you mentioned pressure from your peers in regards to this situation, so give thought to how you feel – express it to your friends -- and find out how this girl feels about your pursuing her before making any sudden moves.
Other influences, fifth card, 8 cups reversed. You yourself said you interpreted this to mean that you’re debating on staying single forever – or just fleeing from the path that includes relationships. However, this card in reverse warns against fleeing from this path – as there IS something here that has potential for you. If you flee, you will miss out on these opportunities that love and relationships bring.
This card relates to suffocating oneself. The ideal aspect of this card depicts the eight cups, stacked neatly, and yet the man in the card is turning his back on the cups in search of something more promising. The reversal of this card warns against passing up opportunities. Perhaps this is not necessarily about the girl you mentioned in particular, but the cups may represent all romantic possibilities.
You said you saw the Hermit card when you were shuffling – and I think that relates very closely to what’s being said with the 8 cups here, as well as the 9 of discs. The Hermit card also represents Virgo and the Heart
Chakra. It’s a bit of a contradiction, but what I interpret from all this is that the solitary path CAN lead us to become more loving and caring people. The challenging aspect is not to stray too far down the path – to the point of complete isolation. I don’t think you have to worry about this so much – as you’ve done this reading and you’re asking these questions. But it’s something to consider – how much you invest in yourself, versus how much you invest in other people.
If you are considering the possibility of a new relationship in your life, you’ll have to realize that the solitary path will no longer be traveled by just you. You’ll be bringing someone along, and you’ll be participating in give and take. Determine your capacity to do this – determine your capacity for unconditional love – before entering into any relationships.
Obstacles, 3 of cups in reverse. This relates to not wanting to deal with the idealistic aspect of this card – relationships tend to require too much effort on your part, as you see it. You’d rather just not bother. However, the idealistic aspect of this card depicts abundance and celebration. In its reversal, there is no cause to celebrate, as no effort is being made in this regard. You may be feeling sorry for yourself – which is a miss-step. You’d do well to take in all the facts – accept and own the choices you’ve made – and give thought to the choices you’d like to make from here on out, especially in regards to what’s depicted in the idealistic aspect of the cups 3. If this is a scenario you’d like to see yourself in – abundance and celebration with the best of company – then give plenty of thought as to how your thoughts, attitudes, and actions can facilitate the actualization of this card’s ideals from now on.
Outcome, Justice. This card represents Libra, symbolized by the scales, and it’s about balance. There are two opposing thought processes or habits (this could be physical or metaphysical).
Balance doesn’t mean that everything is equal. That’s stagnant. Balance means that both forces are pulling one another INTO balance, but balance is never permanent. It needs work, it needs pulling. Without the pulling, balance can’t exist. It’s like the see-saw, when your friend gets up and vacates, and you go slamming down on the ground.
I can’t say for sure what you’re balancing here. But you probably have a better idea than I do. I have a feeling this card is talking about something only you’d know about.
This card also relates to how one wields power. Do you consider yourself Just, in the sense of human Justice? This card could be about the balance you’re attempting to strike within yourself as well as outside yourself. Seeing as you said you’ve been a solitary person for quite some time, perhaps your discipline would benefit the outside world. Don’t keep too much of yourself just for yourself =) Otherwise how will everyone know how brilliant you can be?
I think I’ll leave it at that. I hope this was helpful, I’m not a professional by any means. I study Tarot in my personal time because I find it fascinating. I give lengthy readings because I hate being vague. I hope this helped clarify some things you maybe missed, and in the meantime the best of luck on your journey
) I just wonder how you managed to come up with all this though. Did you study for long already? Currently I can only manage to put some logical thought into this (such as trying to discern elemental dignities and such), and not using much intuition yet.