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by sweetsunray » Wed Oct 07, 2009 3:35 pm
Hmmm, I used to be scared of the death and tower card, but not anymore, because I've long learned to see things giong wrong in life as oportunities for the strongest learning, and I'm from nature not a person who likes to have things stay as they were... When I see the tower I think of the feeling of electricity that rushes over my spine when the light bulb of insight comes after the tower struck. Same goes for death. It helps that I see those cards often nowaydays when I'm looking forward to changes in my life.
For the same reason I never saw something scary in the fool, although I drew it as a center card yesterday for a reading for myself, and admittedly I have this uncomfortable feeling the past 2 days where I tell myself "I must be a fool." That the fool was lying there didn't sooth that self-perception. But no, I still don't fear the fool.
The Hierophant wasn't my friend for a long time, because I used to not understand what the hell he's trying to tell me. But I'm starting to fgure him out more and more, although he can be annoying still. After all, he tells me that I'm seeking meaning in something, which I usually already know, and yet doesn't tell me what the meaning is. Aaaagh. Frustrating, but not scary.
I don't understand why people see the hanged man as something scary... It's such a spiritual card imo. Yes it's a passive one, but it is the image of catharsis, and in a way very active... the acceptance and finding peace within is an active choice, and a beautiful process where one can accept how they are without caring that the world thinks he's got it upsde down. Maybe I like it for the same reasons I like the tower or death.
I don't mind seeing the Devil... It tells me straightforwardly that your desires are a bad advizer. At least you know what to do with them then.
The Chariot makes me the most uncomfortable of those named in the list: though it means succes and victory, it reveals that a contradictory situation is held under control with pure willpower. I'd prefer to see situations as they ought, integrated and understood, rather than forced or controlled. The succes comes with a bitter taste imo, and will come to bite you later on anyhow.
The other cards I don't like to see are minors: 9 of swords (depression), 8 of swords (blocks and outside interference for similarly no reason), 2 of swords (forced balance, but not really), 7 of pentacles (hoping for a harvest, and it usually doesn't come), 4 of pentacles (holding on tightly to that which you must let go), 2 of pentacles (looks ok, but for some reason things never turn out ok whenever I saw it)
And of those I think I fear the 9 of swords the most: shame, agony, sorrow, and not finding a way out because of depression.